Hey,
Wish u a very happy and prosperous new year 2008. ah i know it is already april but how does it matter. If it is your bday, whether someone wishes u at 000hrs or at 12:00 noon , it will be ur bday and u wud be accepting the wishes and gifts(sometimes even after the bday is gone).. then why not new year wishes... 2008 so far has been a mostly a bag of good newses for me except for couple of not so good moments .. and the irony is that those couple of moments are what impacting me and my thoughts at the time of writing this post. From the positive sides, I got a promotion for the first time in my professional life , Got my house renovated , got a new job abroad , Cashew is getting accepted well in the house , my niece and nephew are enjoying there childhood and are keeping everyone around engaged(much like what Adobe CEO wants its clients to be with Adobe products) ..
On the sad part, the feel of leaving home is not something that I rejoice with. I love my folks more than anything else in the world and the idea of leaving them fills me deeply with gloomy emotions . Imagining myself lonely in a new world wandering on the roads has been scaring me for couple of weeks . To make things worse, there have been not so favourable response from someone whom I started considering more than just a friend. I cant force my thoughts on anyone nor can I charm anyone to look for me. All I can do is to wish the person finds all the happiness that was ever dreamed. But lately, person in focus said something which totally shattered me. It marked a sign of distrust towards me which deeply hurt me. I do not know what prompted such a thing but from then on, I have stopped trusting anyone in my life except for my family and 4 of my childhood friends. But this thing turned out to be a blessing and I feel that I had escaped what could have been the most deadlies mistake of my life. One thing I still felt bad about is how can I be so incorrect in judging an individual and the personality.
As for me , i will find some way to keep myself occupied. I can atleast give it a try . If I go ahead and move out of India, I would hardly be having anytime to think about such matters as there would be so much of new things to learn anf get used to and more importantly start re-learning about judging humans...
That is it ..
I hope I am more regular in updating the blog and act more responsibly
